urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69 fatpants69 fatpants69 2009-07-13T09:32:48Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:5384 2009-07-13T09:32:48Z 2009-07-13T09:32:48Z Ok then. Day 1 of the ABC plan.<br />So far hot water and lemon to flush out my system and 1 pint of icy cold water to kick start the matabolism. I am looking into getting a colonic done. My friend had it and she said it made her feel super clean. I really really want one. Scared i would get hooked on it though. I have a very addictive personality.<br />Got addicted to a lot of things and i have no control. Go figure. lol.<br />Will update this for myself. Please feel free to read but this is mainly for me. I actually dont do anything for myself and i think its nice to look back on my feelings in different situations. I already feel more positive about today now i have written this down.<br />Fabulous. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx<br />Away for a bike ride with the kiidies. God i love them so much. x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:5338 2008-01-20T17:56:46Z 2008-01-20T17:56:46Z Hey folks. Sorry i havnt been on in a while. A lot of things happening in fatpants world at the moment. Me and my man are back together again for the time being. Things are not completly sorted but they are on the right track. Thank you much hugeness to everyone that sent me messages. TOTALLY APPRECIATED GIRLS AND BOYS. I was REALLY FUCKING LOW. aNYWAYS GOING TO DO THE Fat fast tomorrow. Will let you know my progress hunnies.<br />LURVVVVVVVVVVVVVE YOU ALL. MWAH. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:4982 2008-01-16T17:53:56Z 2008-01-16T17:53:56Z He has left me. Obviously 2 kids and 5 years together mean fuck all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:4857 2008-01-16T10:37:53Z 2008-01-16T10:37:53Z Me and my man had a huge argument last night. I was supposed to be on a fast. I then binged and purged really badly. I got caught being sick. SHIT. X urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:4360 2008-01-12T11:47:49Z 2008-01-12T11:47:49Z Tired, cold, hungry, bored. bleh<br />Ijust popped 8fluoxetine. :(<br />Having such a shitty day and its only 11.47.<br />:( urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:4147 2008-01-11T23:38:39Z 2008-01-11T23:38:39Z kings of leon I dont think i have ever been this cold. Drinking some hot water and lemon. The kids are in bed and my man is out working doing a favour for my friend. We will call her bouncer(she works on the door in town.) My man used to work on the door. Thats how we met. He looked so fucking hot all dressed smart. Just hope he doesnt have all these pretty girls trying it on with him. I feel so bad as i do truly love him but am not nearly as affectionate as him. I also cant stand him touching me sometimes. Its sad as i know he loves me and finds me so attractive but all i see is YOU FAT FUCKER.YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER.YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER.YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER.YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER YOU FAT FUCKER<br />Think i am gonna start a new thinspo book. I need to go to the docs for more fluoxetine. I got put back on them in dec. I have so much housework to do.<br />today i had coffee<br /> fanta zero<br /> 2 slices dry toast<br /> noodles with soy sauce<br />Dont know if i am gonna try that fat fast diet. I am tempted. x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:4017 2008-01-10T12:31:45Z 2008-01-10T12:31:45Z COFFEE......... I LOVE IT. I have such a sore belly today. FUCKING PERIODS ARE FUCKED UP. I binged on bread last night....BREAD. WTF. One good thing is my man seen me eating it and was like, i am so glad you are eating. I was getting a bit sussed again. I dont need to worry do i?<br /> Not at all i said.<br />WHATEVER......<br />hE DOESNT need to worry i am in control again. Starting work again this week and i cant wait. I am one of those lucky people that LOVES their job. Have not been working in a month but get back to it this weekend. Its fabby. Need the money too. x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:3797 2008-01-09T22:23:38Z 2008-01-09T22:23:38Z I jusy binged on bread. I really want to purge but i absolutly hate throwing up bread. BLEH. I AM PANICKING. ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:3085 2008-01-08T16:24:52Z 2008-01-08T16:24:52Z Well ladies i thought i would share my embarressing story with you. Well i was completley mortified. I was at the in laws with my man and kids and my man was showing his dad photos of our son building a snowman on his phone. His dad then looked through his phone at his photos and said to me, thats a nice one of you to me. I knew i didnt have anything to worry about as i never let my man take photos of me naked or semi naked so i was just like, a good photo of me....thats rare. He then kept looking at it saying nice pants. His mum then snatched the phone off him and said, well if you want to call them pants. I thought they were totally winding me up so i was just like, oh really. My mans mum then gave me the phone and here was a pic of me with my thong on and thats it brushing my teeth at the sink. Needless to say my man got a slap. I looked on the funny side though. Wanker but i still love him. I cant beleive how sexy he finds me. Bleh. Hopefully that gave you a giggle.<br />Had one slice of bread and loads of fanta zero and coffee today. WHOOP WHOOP. <br />I am in control again. YEE HAW. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:3002 2008-01-07T14:07:32Z 2008-01-07T14:07:32Z Well i have had nothing today apart from 3 glasses of water. I went out walking for 2 hours so i am so tired. My daughter is being a proper grumper today. She is tired as she didnt get much sleep last night. Agh sleep. I love sleep. My son is back in nursery today and my man is back at work. BLISS. Nobody watching over me. Its fabbylicious. I can start coming on here regularly again. Oh my god i feel so good. Relief is a wonderfull thing. x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:2561 2008-01-05T17:39:09Z 2008-01-05T17:39:09Z Well i am feeling rather good today for a change. Went shopping with my best friend who is gay and he always cheers me up. I have been trying to get on the computer but my familly are getting rather sussed of me AGAIN.....<br />I know they care. Had a fab xmas with my man and the kids. It was soooooooo good. And New year rocked too. I didnt do that great with restricting over xmas but i didnt purge or really binge at all so i am quite pleased with myself. This time of year i am usually totally fucked up but i feel quite mellow.<br />I was naughty though and took some speed over xmas and new year( the kids were away) but its done now and cant turn back the clocks.<br />Anyways i am starting my fast today as the stuff i have eaten has made me feel like absolute shite. So i am fasting just like having a detox. Thats all it is. Well thats what i tell myself anyways. x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:2552 2007-12-21T16:58:19Z 2007-12-21T16:58:19Z DOWN 3 LBS urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:2216 2007-12-18T10:01:57Z 2007-12-18T10:01:57Z I dont tend to post on here but i think i am going to start. I have decided to start my 2468 today. I have never actually managed to do it before. I trhink by putting it on here and peeps seeing i am doing it will give me the motivation to do it. The reason why i never manage is i ALWAYS end up binging and purging. I hate doing this. I hate being sick but at the same time it gives me such a rush of relief and i am in controll. But i cant keep doing this. Hopefully i will be disciplined enough to do this so i am not purging. Wish me luck. x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:1986 2006-11-24T09:58:22Z 2006-11-24T09:58:22Z Wel well what a surprise. I totally fucked up at work last night. Had a sandwich and felt sick after it. I needed the energy. Was workin nightshift and had no sleep yet. Enough of the excuses. 2468 here i come. x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fatpants69:1330 2006-11-23T12:07:51Z 2006-11-23T12:07:51Z Well i have just made lunch for my son and managed not to eat anyof it. Had some sugar free jelly though. Feelin quite sick but resistin to purge just and no more. Maybe i will. God sake i am so abnormal.